I’ll believe you.
Note: I submitted and wrote this while I was in an abusive relationship, and it happened to be accepted for publishing months later. Things are much better now. I left and I did find a few people I could count on.
I’ll believe you
Next time you see me falling
please remind me that it’s never wise
to put trust in people
who live for themselves
and only themselves
I wanted a family
again and again
I sought with excitement
but some animals are solitary
Some animals are solitary
Fighting social nature
trying to be free
I was never supposed to be here
but I found my way
Perhaps I got lost
on the wrong planet
or in the wrong time
to learn a lesson from this pain
I want it to stop
I want time to heal
just a little time to heal
Wounds ripped open
over and over
never have a chance to mend
sometimes
Sometimes I think it will be different
Sometimes I think it’s all me
Sometimes I feel like a victim
sometimes
sometimes it’s ok
sometimes it’s ok
maybe this time
it’ll be ok
Maybe I’ll make it this time
Maybe I’ll want to survive
Tell me it will be ok
this time
I’ll believe you
What else can I do?
About Author
Corvus
I'm a crazy, empathetic, sensitive, queer, transgender butch doing my best to make sense of this world. Career-wise, I spent 5 years doing cognitive neuroscience and psychology research and currently work in the clinical health integration field in a more interactive position. I have had mental diagnoses in various forms most of my life and also deal with physical disability. I live in the United States and organize when possible with a current focus on nonhuman animal advocacy, mental health diversity, and confronting white supremacy. I hope the things I write here provide experience that people can learn from or relate to.