Fear of Addiction and the Fall Into Alcoholism
My first experience drinking beer (well, aside from the time my mother’s brother gave me a drink when I was like five telling me it was soda – I spit it back out on him) was at a neighbor’s party when I was 20 or so. Up until that point, I’d never had a beer, and didn’t even like the smell of it. Over the next year and a half of knowing him, I found an affinity for beer, in relatively limited quantities, anyway.
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Today, Like So Many Others, Is A Great Day
Editor’s note: This story mentions some severe triggers. Please be careful about reading this story if you are easily triggered by the topics mentioned in our trigger warning.
Trigger warnings: Abuse, including torture and child sexual assault, forced confinement, rape, violence, bullying, and hate crimes.
Yesterday/today was/is a great day. A day to celebrate. Any day that slaps me upside my head and and asks, “WTF you bitching about?” is always a great day!
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My Experience with Bullying (Katie)
Trigger Warning: Bullying, School Violence
I had never even met these kids before. One of them came up to me while I was at my locker and just said “Whatchu been sayin’ about my mama?” I had no idea what he was talking about – I’d never even seen him to my recollection. So I basically ignored him and went back to dealing with my locker.
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My Experience with Psychotic Depression (Micah)
I am not sure where to start. There is so little I remember. I’m not even certain of my exact diagnosis now. Is it psychotic depression or schizoaffective disorder? Or something else? It doesn’t really matter.
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Remembering Jamie Hubley
Another day, another LGBTQ youth suicide. I am sad to report that 15-year old Jamie Hubley, from Kanata, Ontario, Canada ended his life on Saturday, overwhelmed by loneliness and homophobic bullying. On his Tumblr, he expressed his pain and depression for months. In his final post, he said the following: Its just too hard. I [...]
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My Experience with Depression (Faye)
I’ve been struggling with depression for as long as I can remember – I was abused by a family member as a child and that left me emotionally scarred. When my parents divorced, it only got worse until said family member moved away. Things just seemed to pile on and on and when I was 13 I began the struggle with self harm, cutting and scratching myself.
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From Darkness To Daylight
It’s the little things that bring meaning to life. I will never forget that morning. I didn’t want to open my eyes. I couldn’t believe I lived through that. What happened? Why did I chicken out? It felt like there was nothing left of me.… It was just before 9 a.m. I decided to pick [...]
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